September 1, 2008: I left my recently acquired apartment in downtown Midland and drove in my Cash For Clunkered truck to the newspaper wearing a tie. It was my first day at my first job following a summer in Washington, DC at an internship with The Washington Times. I was excited to finally be in a place where I could sink into a community and begin to learn and grow. The excuse of too much homework, general ed. classes, and the feeling of waiting for the right opportunity, were washed away with a diploma, a visit to HR to sign some papers, and my first assignment. My opportunity had come and I wanted to milk it for all it's worth.
But with the passing of one excuse comes another and a feeling that the grass is always greener. Leaving college was a huge deal and I didn't realize it until the end of September hit and I was no where close to something that had been apart of my life for so long. On top of being away from the college bubble- of being able to call people at 3 AM to hang out, or to have the endless supply of entertainment at any moment- I was away from the love of my life. I had always heard long distance relationships as being tough, but now I was in the thick of it. I chose to be in the thick of it and despite being far from her, it's been worth every day. Worth every frustration. I probably would have quit and become a pizza boy in Columbia just to be close to her, if it wasn't for her keeping me in check with reality. Keeping me motivated and believing in me. She is my number one supporter, my number one source of inspiration. She is a huge reason I try to remain positive and has been there through every step of my personal transition. Through the annoying reminisces and nostalgic banter of a time that once was. But always there to remind me of the time that is and the time that will be.
Today (this was written on Sept. 1) is exactly one year since beginning my job at The Midland Daily News in Midland, Michigan and what a great year it has been, not without hardships, but great nonetheless. I can distinctly remember my first day eating cheeseburgers at a local pub with staff photographer Nathan Morgan and Hearst Fellow, Shaminder Dulai. Shaminder also started his eight month stint on September 1, and we quickly bonded, feeling like outsiders in a small family-oriented town.
Before Midland, I remember hitting many funks in shooting during school and at internships. I remember seeing great work in one style of photography that I wanted to attempt to get better at, and then in the same moment see other work completely different that I wanted to be able to shoot. I was bouncing from advertising to gritty black and white documentary photojournalism. I loved the static pieces in museums and the equally powerful but different images in National Geographic and in between the two, I couldn't find a middle ground. Until September 1 of 2008, I couldn't figure out my purpose. Where little me stood in a field of giants. But now I know. I want to be a photojournalist for a newspaper that respects its photographers and the visual stories told on a daily basis. I found that in Midland. I also know that my time in Midland is not forever and that the way the industry is headed, I'm not sure what, if any, options will be open when I am ready to leave. I know I want to continue learning and growing to tell stories with my camera. I know the life of freelancing as a primary source of income is not for me, at least not at this point.
I was never one for contests, seeking out grants, and really haven't the slightest idea how to market myself. I did have some yellow business cards printed out not too long ago, so maybe that's a start. But in January, I told myself I needed to set some personal goals, something to keep my head up if a funk ever came around. Those contest goals involved the MPPA (Michigan Press Photographers Association) and NPPA clip contests, BOP, POYi, and POY MPPA. Other goals were to push myself into more intimate situations, spend more time on assignments trying to find the story beyond the story I was given, work on more video, and become more organized. So far, I am leading MPPA clips through the month of March. I held first place through the month of May in NPPA for Region 4, currently in 3rd place with 6 months to go. I have pushed myself into more intimate situations with the hope and sometimes success of a better photograph to tell the story. I have picked up the video camera more times than I thought I would and am beginning to enjoy it on certain assignments.
For this next year, my goals for photojournalism are:
• Take more initiative with assigned stories and try to turn lemons into lemonade on every daily assignment.
• Have a successful running blog at which an essay can be compiled from the posts
• Complete 2 long term stories dealing with something happy and fun and another dealing with a social issue in the community that many people are unaware of.
• Complete a story for a magazine and pick up more freelance assignments. Possibly even weddings.
• End the year in the top 3 for NPPA Region 4 clips and MPPA clips
• Become more of an active member in the community, somehow related to photojournalism, whether through galleries, hosting open discussions...etc...
• Become involved with an NGO part time
• Really push my assignments beyond the typical or expected.
• Visually think more outside the box and work on including purposeful content in the frame.
• Become a decisive photojournalist through stories in my backyard.
A phat shout-out goes to Ryan Wood and the rest of the MDN photo crew for all the support.
This photo was from a spot news event on my first day at work where an unknown chemical was released from a box at the local Salvation Army and people had to be hosed down by a hazmat unit.